This is what the world looks like when I'm stoned. Soft focus, hazy light, a little blurry, and a whole lot warmer.



JD:





Meg & Adam



Meg



Amy standing in a doorway in Over the Rhine around 1 am.



Amy being sophisticated





Modrad, my namesake



Santi, Julie's little brother



Neal's roomie



House in Lexington



Motel in Lexington



Modrad again!

jared drinking.







amy coquetting.

so work and school have me ready to quit them again. work's not so bad, it's mainly school.



megan asked me if i liked amy. i said yes.

i don't want to have some stupid drama with nancy, because i love nancy a lot. thing is, we're going to be apart for more time than we're together, and we're eighteen and i don't know what else, i mean, i don't want to screw things up with nancy just because i couldn't keep my pants zipped. nor do i want to mislead amy. nor do i want a one night stand, we all know how the last one turned out. eh.



flaming lips.



everything's exploding.

I've been hanging out with the captain's quarters kids a lot. the Captain's quarters being Megan, Jody, and Amy. and jared. but i hang out a lot with jared anyway. i feel like such a bohemian. we go from apartment to bar to studio and we talk about stuff. jared's starting his own art movement called "Neo-Romanticism." i told him he's full of shit. he and megan are the the artists. i'm the writer. amy's the architect. we need a photographer, and then we'll have our own little art circle. there's even steve the communist.



So i miss you, a lot. i took a nap today and slept with Good Guy. something i haven't done since i was four. i thought you'd find that funny.



i got a handout today from Jews for Jesus. it's about what's hip, and having a personal relationship with the ol JC is what's hip. even for jews.



school's crazy. so much reading.



tomorrow is mami's birthday, so we're going down to ol' Lexington. no one's there, anymore. all my friends have scattered to the wind. kind of sad.



it's kind of weird how suddenly i'm surrounded by attractive women who seem to be interested in me. maybe it's cause for the last nine months i haven't really gone anywhere without nancy. actually, that's probably why. i kind of am enjoying it.