today was strange. i was at the buzz, and andi came over and took dictation. i've got a crush on her, i think. and then, i was asked to walk her to her car so she could change clothes. in the car. we talked for about two hours, in front of the buzz, watched some kids sit on scott's car. i taught her to waltz.



*sigh*



damn hormones.



i'm not single anymore, i'm glad of that, but i'm having a hard time adjusting.



i started a new story. it's called Seven Virgins. it's going to be fun, but it's slow going, as i'm actually having to make it up. as opposed to the other story, where i was just writing down stuff that happened...and changing the names. and inserting clever stylisms.



i read a bit of it aloud to joel, and realized it sucked, so i kind of started trailing off. he said "look, you got to read it like you mean it. speak like you have a pair." joel rocks. except then it was sort of embarassing. especially considering the fashion core trio was there, and they hate me. joel can get along with anyone he wants to. he's got an attitude, but can pull it off. i want to be like him when i grow up.



but as i told andi. i probably won't.



i talked to ania. it was silly nothingness for the most part. i feel somewhat doomed. i have clever things to say, but i say them without really meaning them. aaa. this is not good, not good. i hope i see her soon.