craziness, these last 24 hours. sad is sierra, i don't think this was totally what either of us expected. but i think it's the right thing. think long term, think long term. sad is bekki. i went down to lexington today (on two hours of sleep) to see her and say goodbye. she goes back to school sunday. and i don't think i was doing her (or myself) right by stringing things on like that. it was kinda dick, really. i felt terrible. she and mom (not my mom but Mrs. Dundon, the only other person than my mom i call mom) cut my hawk off. for old times sake. the first night i met bekki, she cut my hair. happy is nancy. things look good. very good. i quit smoking. i finished things off with a cigar this morning on the way to lexington.



i was zoned out thinking about stuff (last night; listening to lou reed's berlin with nancy and sierra, depressed, the parking lot and the heady orange glow, what i was gonna say to bekki) on tates creek in lexington when i realized a cop was behind me (he'd been there for two miles). it freaked me out, and i panicked and pulled into the median. at 75 mph. he yelled at me at first, cause i was a stupid kid, but he was really nice after we calmed down. i got a citation for refusing to yield to an emergency vehicle. he and i tried to push the car out, but failed. i had to get towed out of there, this young guy pulled me out for free. which is cool cause i had not nearly enough money for a tow. i got very muddy.



this morning when i work up at 8 (three hours after dropping nancy off), it was -2 degrees. insane, insane. things need to calm down.