the more i hear, the less i care



been sick the last few days. not cool, cause we have show today, and one of the other bands cancelled so we'll have to make it up. fuck life, fuck life. the doc. said it was the flu. whatever it is, it's rough. felt like i was gonna die yesterday. i feel somewhat better today, but as of yesterday, i couldn't even walk straight. the walls were distorting, my head felt like it was going to split open, and i had no energy at all. i also had a fever. funny what goes through your head at that point. but today i can at least walk. so i'm playing the show. rock n roll, rock n roll. this has officially been the worst week ever.



summthin' funny. megan the anti-pagan has been trying to talk to me again, and i have not been responsive, so today i get a letter with a printed address and no return address. it was from her of course. i don't wanna even think about her unless she's gotten off the whole jesus kick and aged a couple of years. god eats my women.



it's fuckin' snowing. again. fuck life.



i'm looking for a job. no one that isn't "food services" isn't hiring. fuck that. i guess i'm back to being unemployed for the near future. tomorrow i gotta go in and pick up my paycheck if it's not at least $500 i'm gonna rip shit up. 78 hours at $7.50 an hour.



i think i'm gonna go back to sleeping.